A good friend of mine died this weekend . . .

[MissRyry]

I will miss her sooooo much. Is it just terrible to feel sorry for myself for the loss I feel in my heart???

I feel sorry for her kids and for her sisters who I know. I do. Why her? Why can't people who hate die ... why the good ones???

Jodie Sue, rest in peace.

http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y77/DustyDoll/642ab9e5.jpg

>'.'<

[Csara]

Oh Rhonda, I'm so sorry! That is so sad. :( It's not terrible at all for you to feel sorry for yourself. Good friends are hard to find and you shouldn't minimize the loss you feel. Ofcourse it's horrible for her family, but certainly friends are allowed to mourn too. I'm sorry for all of you. :(

[HeavenLeigh]

I'm so sorry Rhonda. I will keep you and her family in my thoughts. I know death is a hard thing to comprehend and accept but I do hope you can find some peace in your heart soon. Jodie will be here as long as she's carried in the hearts of those that loved her.

[Deana]

Rhonda, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Please do not feel bad for feeling the way you feel!!! Grieve however you need to grieve. Loss is such a hard thing to deal with.

You will be in my thoughts :itsok:

[jana]

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that, Rhonda! :( :itsok:

[MissRyry]

Thank you so much for your support. It just has really hit "close to home" this time. You hear of someone else's uncle passing away, someone's cat, etc. and then when it happens to you -- it's like a wake up call. Woah! This could happen to anybody. I feel such sadness and loss. She was the girl everybody loved. Always a party around Jodie! Always smiling. I knew her for over 21 years . . .

>'.'<

[mistressmambo]

Sorry to hear about you friend, Rhonda. :(

[HeavenLeigh]

Thank you so much for your support. It just has really hit "close to home" this time. You hear of someone else's uncle passing away, someone's cat, etc. and then when it happens to you -- it's like a wake up call. Woah! This could happen to anybody. I feel such sadness and loss. She was the girl everybody loved. Always a party around Jodie! Always smiling. I knew her for over 21 years . . .

>'.'<

It is scary when something hits close to home. It makes us question our own mortality. Let the memory of her smile glow in your heart. It will keep you warm when the world seems cold and dim.

How is her family? How are you? Everyone is still in my thoughts.

[MissRyry]

I have tried to call her home number but there's no answer. I should try again today. I missed the funeral.

I'm doing okay. Had a terrible nightmare last night about losing Carl and just feeling "out of control." Wonder if that's connected in any way?

>'.'<

[HeavenLeigh]

I would say yes. On a day to day basis we normally don't think about losing those we love and when we do---it's a very scary thing.

I was 19 the first time anyone close to me died. My Mamaw on my Dad's side. I flipped out, literally. I had panic attacks *didn't know what they were at the time* and just "knew" I was dying. If I heard of an illness, I "had" the symptoms. I thought I had cancer, tumors, heart attacks, I was a basket case for months. I would have nighmares, I would cry for hours on end praying to God to please let me live. Of course having the World's biggest moron for a husband at the time didn't help matters any. I couldn't talk to my parents, scared that they would worry. The ex told me I was "Stupid" and to "snap out of it" so I had noone.
Talk to Carl, talk to a friend, talk to a preist/clergy, make an appt with a therapist, talk to anyone that will listen. It will help. I'm here if you need me. Just Email or PM me. krysti.n.ky@gmail.com
Lots of love. Hang in there.